I have always loved food. It has been more of a love and hate relationship in the past. I loved to eat food but it seemed to hate my body. Food did a number on my intestines, my blood sugar levels, or my waist. But the whole time my mouth loved it. Travelling through the teenage years though was when I truly lost my connection with food. I was lost when I ate. Should I eat this or should I eat at all? Yes, I struggled with an eating disorder for many years. They were dark, confusing years but after I married and matured I began to rediscover my connection with food again.
My food relationship had evolved like a marriage. I always loved food but I had to learn to dance and move with it to discover what fit and where it fit. Being sans gluten, dairy, soy, and legumes my relationship with food had focused me on it to a finite level. I was careful with each element of a meal. I knew what it was, where it came from, what it paired best with, and so on. It was a relationship evolving. It is still evolving, every day. Just like a marriage.
When my new relationship with food began again I became obsessed. I read every cookbook I could place my hands on. Even now, you can find me in the aisles with books on food in bookstores, or find me reading the latest issue of "Food and Wine" at my local library while the kids play and find books. Reading cookbooks calms me. Photographs, or no photographs, the words speak to my soul. It is a warmth that soothes me. It is a place where I search for peace and find it, every time.
I truly began to cook well though while reading "French Women Don't Get Fat". It was like a wake up call. I could eat what I liked and it would like me back. I just started to fine tune the recipes for what my preferences and tolerances were. Mireille Guiliano was in essence my teacher. From there I went back to cookbooks I had acquired and saw the recipes in a new light. Her book inspired me to cook better and richer foods even with all the foods our family was unable to eat. Thank you Mireille.
However life changing the "French Women Don't Get Fat" book was, and it was, I had already been sneaking reads from Julia Child's books. I was hooked from the first page. I own none of her books, which is very sad, but every time I go to a bookstore I immediately look for one of her books. I watched her numerous times on television, which delighted me because she was such a beautiful soul, but it was her words in her recipes that touched my heart deeply. And even though almost, who am I kidding, all of her recipes include butter, something it seems my body can longer eat due to intolerance and an attempt to stave of any more symptoms of Multiple Sclerosis, I am still very fond of her food and even more her passion for food.
I was unaware that a movie was even being made about Julia Child. Even more surprising was that the woman portraying Julia Child was my favorite actress Meryl Streep. When I saw the preview, five days before it was released, my eyes brimmed with tears and I was bouncing off my seat letting out little "oh, oh". My husband laughed and told me I should see it and he would watch the kids. For five whole days I waited. I watched the trailer at least thirty times and I tried to wait as patiently as I could.
I chose a late afternoon movie at the cinemas closest to our house, that way if our littlest one needed to eat, it would be easy for my husband to get to me. I fed our littlest one a final time, made a pot of sage and borage tea, sweetened with a touch of agave nectar, and cut up two carrots to take into the movie with me. The cinema complex is only about a ten minute walk from our house so I kissed the kids good-bye and listened to my four-year old yell out the front door, "I'm really, really going to miss you, Mommy!", and walked the short distance, enjoying the sprinkles of rain that fell on my head and relishing in the moment of not having to answer any questions from curious little ones.
When I arrived at the parking lot of the cinema complex it was about ten minutes before the movie was due to begin and many, many people were arriving at the same time. What made the arrival of so many people different than most other times I have visited the cinema was the fact that everyone walking in front or behind me was well over the age of sixty. Grey hair was everywhere. I had a good feeling that they were going to watch the same film, "Julie & Julia". I was right. So many older women had come to watch a movie about a woman they had grown old with. I mean, my goodness, Julia Child was ninety-one when she died in 2004. Who knows how many of the women viewing the film with me had been influenced my Julia Child!
I chose a seat nearest the aisle and the theatre quickly filled. The comical part of it all was the fact that so many of them came with walkers and canes. There was no way there were enough seats not on the stairs to accommodate them all. It didn't stop this older crowd. They hobbled there way up and down the stairs, canes and walkers in tow. Many a walker and cane were left at the end of the aisle they chose their seat on, which came to be nearly almost every aisle. The beautiful thing for me to note was that almost all of the older crowd dressed up. They dressed to come and view this film. My dress, on the other hand was a t-shirt, cargo pants, and flip-flops. I felt completely under dressed and felt at the end of the film the need to wear a fancy 50s dress with snazzy heals and a string of pearls. The whole experience touched me. I felt more comfortable with these older women than I did most of my peers. I shared a film about a woman we all knew and loved. We laughed at the same moments and shared a special story. I found myself at peace in that dark theatre watching the life of a woman I greatly admired.
As evidenced by my words there should be no doubt that I loved the film. Meryl Streep was fantastic and portrayed Julia Child beautifully. Julia Child created something for herself when she could not find it. I hope I am able to do the same. I don't want to be famous, as Julia Child was, but I do know that I love my family, I love food, I love reading, I love writing, I love to travel, and I love to learn. Essentially, I am living my perfect dream job but I receive no monetary funds, a sad but true fact. Now, being a Julia Child admirer I should take to heart her life lesson and CREATE a job with all the the things I am passionate about and do it. One where I am happy and I receive money!
I encourage anyone reading this to see the film or better yet read Julia Child's cook books, books, or find her past television episodes. She was a fantastic example of how to live life even if it isn't exactly what you had in mind in the beginning. Julia Child lived and loved life to its fullest. Cheers to our wonderful and beautiful Julia Child!





